SBE Day 4.

It was raining and fucking sleepy I went back @11. LOL. I miss home so much. Mak called me and asked me to go back ASAP we'll go to Ayang's home as soon as I arrive. Yeay! Excited! (^_^)

SBE Day 3.

Early in the morning, as usual, we got nothing to do. I felt so boring and luckily, today the school got co-curriculum closing ceremony and I went to the hall to help other teachers in decoration the hall. Better help them then mingle around in the staff room doing nothing.

Today we have an opportunity to enter classroom, see how real teacher teach and help the students to write a speech about the benefit of internet. I kind of like dealing with students. I am so happy when one of them said, "Cikgu ni ajar lagi bestlah..." *Wink*

I miss home. I miss my Mak, Ayah, and Hadi so much. I miss Abang too... Its been a long time since the last time I spent time with them. I want to go back. I want to meet my family and Abang. I'm counting every days and hours to go back home.

This weekend, my childhood BFF, Ayang, will get engaged. I can't wait to meet her and spent time with her. Yeah. Sort of excited about it. Hope Abang can come during Ayang's engagement day so that I can introduce him to Wan, my beloved maternal grandma.

I'm currently not happy. Homesick. (T_T)

SBE Day 2.

I don't want to talk about anything. It was fucking boring and I sneaked out and went back @12.

Helloween - Forever And One
What can I do?
Will I be getting through?
Now that I must try to leave it all behind
Did you see what you have done to me?
So hard to justify
Slowly it's passing by

Forever and one I will miss you
However, I kiss you yet again
Way down in Neverland
So hard I was trying
Tomorrow I'll still be crying
How could you hide your lies
Your lies

Here I am
Seeing you once again
My mind's so far away
My heart's so close to stay
Too proud to fight
I'm walking back into night
Will I ever find someone to believe?

Forever and one I will miss you
However, I kiss you yet again
Way down in Neverland
So hard I was trying
Tomorrow I'll still be crying
How could you hide your lies
Your lies

School Based Experience (SBE) Day 1

Here we are, time for reflection of the day. Today was my first day at school as TEACHER to be. Its kind of weird, you know. In this training institute, all students have to go to experience school at least once before they go for their practicum. And today, early in the morning, all the TESLian Cohort5 went separately to their schools. I kind of miss you guys...

Earlier in the morning, my block was ran out of water. We have to go to the mosque to take shower as early as 5.30am. It was so difficult to get up at early as that especially when the morning was wet. Its kind of funny taking shower at the mosque. I feel like I'm one of the nomad/homeless people. LOL!

Put on some make up, wear nice Baju Kurung, and okay! I'm ready for school, SMK Tasek Utara. At school, I mingle around with sleepy head because I didn't have a good sleep last night. I got shock every time the school bell ringing. The sound is so disturbance and irritates me so much. We got boring lepaking at the staff room, then we went to canteen and taking breakfast. My friend and me spend almost 2 hours there, and we only go back to the staff room after we feel uncomfortable. (Because other teacher keep looking at us because we remain there for too long maybe) Hahaha.

Got nothing to do, my friend and I try to finish our task by collecting information about the school, having conversation with dicipline teacher En Jasni/Kpt Jasni, GPK 1 and GPK HEM. We went twice to the canteen because it was so boring and sleepy and we got nothing to do other than eating.

At 12 o'clock, I cannot bear the nuisance anymore. My friend and I sneaked out for a while and go back to the hostel. Luckily, the water is back and I got to wash out my clothes while waiting for 2.20pm to go back to school and sign the lock book.

As a conclusion: Im bored to death.

Game Over.

Damn Man! Hari ni aku telah di game oleh sorang member aku yang bernama Pak Saiko. Dia memang hebat gila bab saiko2 orang ni. Tahap gangster dah. Bukan otai lagi. Game ape yang dia bukak? Game yang menguji... Walaupun aku cakap "kau ni perangai macam Sang Babis", tapi jauh di sudut hati aku, aku berterima kasih kat dia. Dia buat aku realise, once kita dah sayang orang tu, thats it. There is no reason why. We won't question. Damn. Thanks jugak sebab buat aku realise yang aku memang sangat sayang dia...

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