SBE Day 5 (Last Day)

It was raining early in the morning. Me and my friend decided not to come early to school. I continue sleeping until 8.00am. Best gilerh. Then around 9.00am Lia call. Cakap aku dapat class relief tapi macam dah lambat so aku tak sempat pun masuk kelas tu. Then kitorang sume gi makan kat kantin. Cikgu so-called-handsome tetiba masuk makan jugak. *Yaw!* Aku tau dia masuk even aku tak duduk mengadap pintu sebab tetiba kawan aku dah buat muka terencat campur gatai bila dia tengok kat pintu tu. LOL!

Kawan2 aku kata best jugak dapat masuk kelas relief, tapi aku rasa bosan je. Rasa out of place. Yang penting tak sabar nak habiskan semua ni. Nak balik rumah!!! Yeah! Malam ni tidur rumah Ayang, meet up dengan cousin2 semua. Rindu kat rumah sangat2. Aku kalau homesick mesti hidup jadi kusut, kepala serabut, memang tak best, rasa macam sangat damn. Memang kalau orang cari pasal, aku rasa nak lempang je.

I HATE SCHOOL BELL!!!

Bergegar rasa otak bila loceng tu berbunyi. Aku rasa macam nak pergi cabut wayar loceng tu! (Like what we did to our school siren many years ago).

One day nanti kalau aku jadi pengetua aku akan tukar bunyi loceng sekolah jadi ringtone!!!

SBE Day 4.

It was raining and fucking sleepy I went back @11. LOL. I miss home so much. Mak called me and asked me to go back ASAP we'll go to Ayang's home as soon as I arrive. Yeay! Excited! (^_^)

SBE Day 3.

Early in the morning, as usual, we got nothing to do. I felt so boring and luckily, today the school got co-curriculum closing ceremony and I went to the hall to help other teachers in decoration the hall. Better help them then mingle around in the staff room doing nothing.

Today we have an opportunity to enter classroom, see how real teacher teach and help the students to write a speech about the benefit of internet. I kind of like dealing with students. I am so happy when one of them said, "Cikgu ni ajar lagi bestlah..." *Wink*

I miss home. I miss my Mak, Ayah, and Hadi so much. I miss Abang too... Its been a long time since the last time I spent time with them. I want to go back. I want to meet my family and Abang. I'm counting every days and hours to go back home.

This weekend, my childhood BFF, Ayang, will get engaged. I can't wait to meet her and spent time with her. Yeah. Sort of excited about it. Hope Abang can come during Ayang's engagement day so that I can introduce him to Wan, my beloved maternal grandma.

I'm currently not happy. Homesick. (T_T)

SBE Day 2.

I don't want to talk about anything. It was fucking boring and I sneaked out and went back @12.

Helloween - Forever And One
What can I do?
Will I be getting through?
Now that I must try to leave it all behind
Did you see what you have done to me?
So hard to justify
Slowly it's passing by

Forever and one I will miss you
However, I kiss you yet again
Way down in Neverland
So hard I was trying
Tomorrow I'll still be crying
How could you hide your lies
Your lies

Here I am
Seeing you once again
My mind's so far away
My heart's so close to stay
Too proud to fight
I'm walking back into night
Will I ever find someone to believe?

Forever and one I will miss you
However, I kiss you yet again
Way down in Neverland
So hard I was trying
Tomorrow I'll still be crying
How could you hide your lies
Your lies

School Based Experience (SBE) Day 1

Here we are, time for reflection of the day. Today was my first day at school as TEACHER to be. Its kind of weird, you know. In this training institute, all students have to go to experience school at least once before they go for their practicum. And today, early in the morning, all the TESLian Cohort5 went separately to their schools. I kind of miss you guys...

Earlier in the morning, my block was ran out of water. We have to go to the mosque to take shower as early as 5.30am. It was so difficult to get up at early as that especially when the morning was wet. Its kind of funny taking shower at the mosque. I feel like I'm one of the nomad/homeless people. LOL!

Put on some make up, wear nice Baju Kurung, and okay! I'm ready for school, SMK Tasek Utara. At school, I mingle around with sleepy head because I didn't have a good sleep last night. I got shock every time the school bell ringing. The sound is so disturbance and irritates me so much. We got boring lepaking at the staff room, then we went to canteen and taking breakfast. My friend and me spend almost 2 hours there, and we only go back to the staff room after we feel uncomfortable. (Because other teacher keep looking at us because we remain there for too long maybe) Hahaha.

Got nothing to do, my friend and I try to finish our task by collecting information about the school, having conversation with dicipline teacher En Jasni/Kpt Jasni, GPK 1 and GPK HEM. We went twice to the canteen because it was so boring and sleepy and we got nothing to do other than eating.

At 12 o'clock, I cannot bear the nuisance anymore. My friend and I sneaked out for a while and go back to the hostel. Luckily, the water is back and I got to wash out my clothes while waiting for 2.20pm to go back to school and sign the lock book.

As a conclusion: Im bored to death.

Game Over.

Damn Man! Hari ni aku telah di game oleh sorang member aku yang bernama Pak Saiko. Dia memang hebat gila bab saiko2 orang ni. Tahap gangster dah. Bukan otai lagi. Game ape yang dia bukak? Game yang menguji... Walaupun aku cakap "kau ni perangai macam Sang Babis", tapi jauh di sudut hati aku, aku berterima kasih kat dia. Dia buat aku realise, once kita dah sayang orang tu, thats it. There is no reason why. We won't question. Damn. Thanks jugak sebab buat aku realise yang aku memang sangat sayang dia...

(tulis post sambil layan lagu Kalimah Cinta-Amy Search)

SIMPAN DIRIKU TERSIKSA

NAK KU LUAHKAN KU GENTAR

KEKURANGAN KU TERBONGKAR

SISI MU UMPAMA SYURGA

PELUANG EMAS KU JAMAH

BAHAGIA YANG KU CARI

AWAL DULU....

Sampai part tu je. Part lain kurang kaitan dengan hidup aku. Sekian entri kali ini.

Servant Jamm-Cried Out

ServentJamm-Cried Out

When I heard on the lines

When I crossed so many times

But I still default again

When I cried out your name

Could you be by my side

Could you say I'm your life

But I have to stand again

To be with you till the end

Getting alert is a lie

But we can teach them to try

Is that thing that you do?

Come back in time just for you

They want to warn me all about

They want to see how do it out

Is it by walking on it by?

And head down and cry

Why I have such that face

I think I'm better off this place

This is where they have to be

Where the place wild and free

When I kiss your head goodbye

There's something burst in sky

WhenI had this chance again

To be with you till the end

Some said I hurt of my self too much

Some day I won't turn on the light

Cried outwhat you have done to me

Pulled the door and you gave me the key

Don't wanna grow too old too fast

One day there all be time at last

Make love is all that you have said

It's not easy to recreate

CRIED OUT YOUR NAME...

Would You-Chaise Lounge

You've called me

I heard too loud

You'll make me bleeding all the time

You'll come to me

I've know it all

So please don't make it hard again

You have my past time and hear it all

So don't screwing me all the time

Ain't that hard to make me smile

So stop the thing that makes me wild

I've heard you...

A Poem For You.

You ask me why I love you

You ask me why I care

You ask me why you

Above anyone else there

All the things I know

Being with you make me glow

My blood stream overflow

World turns colourful like rainbow

I love you, you know I do

Thats the thing I can't undo

Love me, love me not

You are the best thing I've got.

-From Angie with Love-

Happy Birthday To You

Final Goodbye.

Dear My Sony Ericsson W960i,

We have been together for almost 4 years and maybe more. There were a lot things happen, a lot of memories to be remembered. But no matter how much I love you, I love my Popeye even more. His birthday is coming really soon and I don't have enough money to buy present for him. I know he doesn't need an expensive present but I want to give him one. I know you have been good to me but he gives me his best. I hope you forgive me for letting you go. You know how much you mean to me. I pray that your new owner will take a good care of you. Although you are not as good as when we were first met, I want you to know that I still like you. And again, I am sorry.

Truly,
Olive.

Rindu.

Duduk jauh2, jumpa jarang2, rindu, oh! Bila rindu, tengok gambar2 lama, tengok gambar raya, dalam hati kata "Handsome jugak laki aku nih." Hahaha. Mungkinkah sebab rindu jadi macam tu? Rasanya macam tak. Sebab Popeye memang handsome pun pada aku. My taste (^_^)

Raya hari tu, tak sempat update. Popeye beraya dengan aku and family. Sangat terharu dengan effort dia. Sanggup datang jauh2, untuk beraya. Siap bawak bodyguard (Idzmi Hafiz). Sian Iz. Terpaksa teman Popeye beraya dari tengahari sampai malam. Dah naik merengsa aku tengok Iz malam tu. Dah lah diorang pakai baju Melayu. Kacak, ok! Nanti aku upload gambar sebab ni aku online guna laptop Lia (my roomate). Laptop aku tertinggal kat rumah.

Then masa gi KL raya ke berapa entah aku tak ingat, Popeye follow lagi gi rumah cousin aku. Comel je pakai baju kemeja baru. Wife cousin aku cakap Popeye handsome. Wah! Kembang beliau itu! Anti2 pun cakap Popeye handsome. Tapi, semestinya aku tak bagi tau Popeye nanti dia perasan syok sendiri. So, biar aku je yang tau. Nges3.

Em. Rindu Popeye. Lame dah tak main pool and melepak2 dengan dia. Dah bertambah jauh (-.-) Life Popeye as ADC sangatlah busy. Tak ada masa nak turun JB. Nak harap aku drive pergi KL, memang jangan diharap *Pemalas!*

Okaylah. Banyak lagi cerita best3 pasal raya tapi malas nak taip. Biar je aku simpan sendiri. Peace!